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Name: Heidi
Country: United States
State: Wisconsin
Metro: Kenosha
Gender: Female
Interests: God, guitar, music in general, screamo, punk, hardcore, metal, emo, ska, old-school rap, subseven, falling up, andifiperish, skillet, of the son, pillar, jonah33, showbread, hawk nelson, seventh day slumber, kids in the way, thousand foot krutch, underoath, audio adrenaline, 12 stones, hawk nelson, five iron frenzy, kj-52, relient k, kutless, anberlin, norma jean, the chemistry, mae, project 86, self worth knowing, playing guitar & bass & piano, watching music videos, going to youth group, hanging with friends, praising God, reading my bible, running, learning foreign languages (spanish & russian), going to concerts, moshing
Expertise: following God
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  wewillprosper777
Member Since:
11/29/2004
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| my feeling of connection with God has been like a roller coaster lately.
the great thing is, God has been with me just the same all the while.
He will never leave you, never forsake you.... even when you abandon Him. He loves you, and His whole desire is that you love Him and come to Him and depend on Him. that's all He asks.
He sent His only Son to come to this earth. that's humbling enough. but there's more. God who became man lived a humble life by [i]human[/i] standards. He ought to have been treated as a king. there's more still. He was tested and mocked and scoffed at by the very people, the religious leaders, who ought to have been most joyous at His coming. not only that, they plotted to [i]kill[/i] this man. They beat him and whipped him til he was hardly recognizeable, mocking him all the while; they cast lots for his clothing (for it was his only earthly posession) and they nailed Him to a cross, to die the death of a murderer, when He in His entire life had not sinned and had done no wrong nor harm to anyone. they left Him to die a slow and torturous, gruesome death. this is God who became man, Jesus Christ! He could have at least insisted on the luxurious life of a king, for He deserved far more; He could have escaped His torture at any moment, indeed He could have come down from the cross any moment He wished. but He hung there, suffering, dying, bearing the burden of the sin of the world, all for you. yes, you. if you were but the only person who would have heard and believed what He had done, He would have suffered and died just the same. The shedding of His blood, the sacrifice of the perfect Lamb, made it so our sins could be forgiven, so when we die we are not condemned to hell but given the gift of eternal life with the Father in heaven. all we have to do is believe in our hearts that He did this for us, and ask God to forgive us of our sins. we all have it, the human race has been cursed with sin ever since Adam first chose to disobey God. unfair? perhaps. why would a God who loves us so much let us sin so we cannot come near Him (for He is pure and perfect and holy)? the answer is because in love, He gave us free will. we could choose whether to live a righteous life and obey Him or to sin and disobey Him. but the wonderful thing is, He made it so easy, so simple, that there is not a soul who can't go to heaven. the one and only thing we have to do, is believe, and ask forgiveness. that's all it takes. some people think you have to do good, or more good than sin, or be a good person to go to heaven. while these things are all nice and wonderful, [b]we cannot get to heaven by our own works[/i]. we can only get there by God, for we, as good as we may be, are not perfect, and the only thing God can permit into His kingdom is perfection--yet the only way we can become perfect is through Him, through Jesus Christ. will you chose to accept this wonderful gracious gift of life from God? or will you continue on in your life stubbornly, believing you can make it on your own? | | |
| we start out with a very broad free will- God will only
intervene when absolutely necessary to preserve His plan and His glory. but the more we, in our free will,
depend on Him, the more he will intervene and help us, to the point
where he is acting entirely through us and none of it is us--the
Holy Spirit moving us & acting through us.
where you are in that spectrum is up to you. | | |
| thanksgiving is every day
and for those of you wondering, i have been feeling better as far as
what i wrote in my last entry.... thank you for prayers and such...
God's pretty flippin' awesome, eh? :D
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| so here's where i'm at.... my first year of being a christian, God taught me so much, and i was so eager to learn and follow Him. and He gave me the ability to learn quickly; as a result i think sometimes i saw myself as being "further ahead" than a lot of other christians. i knew it all came from God and that i had Him to thank... but i think there was a small part of me that said, 'hey heidi, look what you've done! great job.' where satan would try to get in my head and influence me. still, i saw how much progress i'd made, and how "good" of a christian i was. once i realized maybe i wasn't as good as i thought, everything started to go downhill. i didn't keep my cool over things i normally would have, i didn't spend as much time with God and in the Word, have been concerning myself over things that i normally would have just left up to God... i haven't even updated my xanga here, for which the sole purpose of is to glorify Him, in months. and the more i slip, the more the devil tries to bring me down further. i'm not as good as i thought. but the thing is, i never thought I was good... it was always God. or was it? perhaps satan is trying to make me doubt the power of God in my life, to make me forget that it is through Him which i do all things. really, i am no good. not without Christ. but satan is trying to make me forget the "not without Christ" part. | | |
| jesus my heart is all i have to give to you
so weak and so unworthy, this simply will not do
no alabaster jar, no diamond in the rough
for your body that was broken, how can this be enough?
by me you were abandoned, by me you were betrayed,
yet in your arms and in your heart forever i have stayed
your glory illuminates my life, and no darkness will descend,
for you have loved me forever and your love will never end
showbread / matthias replaces judas | | |
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